Hi Bud, so sorry you're struggling. The mind games are hard when the niggly doubts get to you and a couple of gains I can imagine will have added to these.
personally I struggled through month 3 and 4 - a mental barrier from diets gone by unfortunately.
I do stay to class, but I do go to a quiet class - the consultant has very busy classes but this one is her only quiet one and a good few of us are there for that reason - so it might be worth asking if there is a quiet class in your area perhaps?
I find the ladies there more supportive than the consultant in honesty, though she always gives a short talk on a subject relating to losses, trimming syns etc before going through weight losses. A few of the ladies are FB friends and even PM'd me one week I couldn't make it to class to say I'd been missed and ask how I was doing - which was really nice as I don't have any friends since I moved her 8 years ago I've struggled.
I hope you find online motivation enough - with us all for support of course too - and can get going again, you have time to make yourself feel better before xmas still.